Wasted days and wasted nights

I sat on the edge of my bed and stared at the cell phone in my hand. [Jason Stackhouse (22)] I had called 22 times and left 14 voice mails. I felt like I was the only one trying here and if he wanted to act like that then fine. So be it. He hadn't spoke to me since the masquerade, and he thought I was...not me. I wiped the red tear from my cheek and sucked it up. I couldn't sulk forever, I couldn't fight for him forever.

I ran my finger along the 5X7 picture of Eden and I. It was the picture that hung over the mantle of the living room in my old home, I was able to save this copy when I snuck in to watch Eden sleep on night. I'd already been invited in before and the invitation was never revoked. I missed my sister, even though we got on one anothers nerves from time to time, she looked up to me...needed me. Now I feel like I've abandoned her. Losing a human family, no matter how religiously screwed up they were, still hurt.

Bill and I hadn't spoke much in the last week or so. I still had no word on what he was doing or where he was. My guess? Spreading his gospel to any vampire who'd listen. So now, I sit in my room, in this abandoned mansion, no guards, no friends. Nothing...nothing but silence to keep me company. Even Tara was busy with Pam. Sookie hadn't answered my calls either. It was like I had the plague. I was starting to miss working at Merlotte's more and more. Least with that I'd have someone to talk to and something to do. I called Sam's cell and waited for an answer.

Sam was at the bar, watching the few...very few customers eat meals and drink his drinks. Luna was with Emma in his trailer, still on edge about what occurred a few nights back. -And here's your change....- He said as he closed the till and handed the man his change for the beer. If things didn't pick up soon, there was no telling what would happen.

He reached into his pocket as the phone continued to vibrate. The screen showed it was Jessica Hamby. -This is Sam.- He said into the phone as he leaned against the bar counter, wondering why she was calling.

‎"Sam, hey. It's Jessica...I was um...wondering if you could use a waitress, or hostess or something...dishwasher, cook....busgirl. I just...I really need to get back to work and socializing. Things have...things have been bad and I just want normal again. I mean, if you can't rehire me or have enough I understand." I was pacing my room and waiting for his answer, the more I waited the more nervous I became.

He sighed and ran a hand through his hair. -Jessica, as much as I'd love to have you...I just...can't afford to pay anyone extra. Maybe when and if things pick back up?- He heard her start to say something, she was such a sweet girl. And a great waitress. -You know what? Arlene wanted to go on vacation with Terry and the kids. How about I have you take her spot while she's out?- Where there was a will there had to be a way.

I almost squealed with delight, but I refrained and kept my cool. I could take Arlene's spot and wouldn't have to hear her mouth off about me being a vampire!! "I...I'd LOVE to Sam!! Thank you...you won't regret it! When do I start?" I was so excited and couldn't wait to be back working with everyone. I had to live my own life, and maybe Holly was right. The more I fought for Jason, the more dangerous it would get. I just wish...at this point, I didn't know what to wish for. But for now...nothing was going to ruin my high.

He smiled and nodded. -Well, great then. I'll get with Arlene and see when she is wanting to take a leave and I can give you a call sometime this week. Remember don't be a stranger.- He didn't care for Bill much at this point, or vampires in general since what happened at the Authority Headquarters. But, he knew Jessica and knew she was not like the others, at least...he hoped he wasn't wrong about her. He'd been wrong before. Way wrong. Now...it's just a matter of learning to trust others again. He hung up with her and slid the phone back in his pocket, seeing the bar had only two customers and the grill was now completely closed down and clean he decided to go on and lock up for the night, get to the trailer and see his two favorite girls.

"That sounds great Sam, thanks again!" After I hung up the phone I collapsed on my bed and smiled. Things would get better with time. I wondered what my life would be like if I could have a happy ever after, after battling through hard times and defeating the villain. But, this was real life, not a movie. I grabbed the remote for the flat screen plasma tv and turned it on to flip through the channels. Finally settling on an old show Eden and I used to love to watch together, all the time, every day if we could. I smiled again, remembering my sister.