Dangerous Feelings

*Tara was enjoying herself, a little sun, a little smile here and there, or at least she was enjoying herself as much as anyone could....after Pam had left, and flown away, she sat for a moment, she knew she couldn't show the full depth of emotion she felt, because she had to be strong for Willa....but deep down inside her insides were quaking, for some reason she felt....like she was about to come undone, and she didn't know why, she couldn't care that much about Pam, could she? Maybe it was just the fact that the blond vampire, always struck her as so strong, like she keeled to no one, followed no one's rules but her, own and yet she always was chasing after Eric, she always had to have Eric's approval....she didn't know if she was jealous, and why should she be, but the it stung her, the words Pam had said to her, as she attempted to get her, to stop talking about Eric, echoed in her mind "You're not him, and you never will be.", No Tara wasn't him, Tara wouldn't have left Pam when she needed her the most, Tara wouldn't have released Pam....Tara....oh what was the fucking point....it was hard, to date someone, when you felt like you always had enormous shoes to fill....Tara would never be Eric, no, but even if he was older then her, she resolved that Pam, didn't deserve nearly half the bullshit she put up with from him, it was easily a toxic relationship, but regardless, there was nothing she could do.....she sighed for a moment, and stopped thinking, it wasn't doing anything different for the situation, I guess when you spend an eternity with someone it really doesn't matter if there a dick.*

"Will, come on, let's get back to the cabin, I wanna raid Pam's closet.....and see what kinda vintage blood they have around that place.....maybe later on we can invite Jessica over, and you guys can do that nail....mani....pedi crap."

*Tara said, with a half smile*

Willa knew that eventually she'd have to either find Eric or accept the fact that Tara was the only person that she had.  Tara was great and they had quickly become friends but Willa still yearned for her maker.  They had spent so little time together and the bond of their blood made her feel like an addict and Eric was her drug.  She wanted to see him so desperately, to have her next fix.  

When Tara spoke, Willa shook her head of her thoughts slightly and plastered a smile on her face.  "Yeah, I wouldn't mind taking a look at her shoe collection myself."

She looked back over at the ongoing party and sighed, wishing she were still high and oblivious to the fact that Eric was gone.  

"Hey, do you mind if it's just us tonight?  I know I said I'd like Jessica to come over but I really don't feel much like socializing with others tonight.  I can get a mani-pedi anytime."

"I know what you're thinking about, or rather should I say, I know who you're thinking about."

*It was no surprise, that Willa would long for her Maker, Tara remembered her first days, as a young vampire, first she was pissed, well pissed didn't cover it, she absolutely, hated with every fiber of her being, what she had become, she remembered, Franklin, and how he used her as his personal chew toy, and how she felt like a caged dog, she remembered Debbie Pelt, holding that shot gun, and pointing it at her best friend, and her reaction, to push Sookie put of the way, she didn't expect to ever come back, and certainly not as a vampire, she still seethed with rage when she thought about how careless they were, and selfish. If Tara wanted to save Sookie, she knew the risk, to be honest she never thought she'd see another day, and when she did, she certainly didn't expect it to be with Pam, in a Walmart sweat suit of all things, some people would have said being a vampire made Tara mean, those people would be the ones that didn't know her before she was turned, she wasn't much different, as a vampire, except, she didn't fear anyone, or anything, except maybe being left with a newborn vampire, when she wasn't much older then the vampire in question, Tara liked Willa, she was chill, but seriously Eric and Pam were fucked, who the hell leaves a baby to take care of a baby, what in the hell was Tara supposed to do, she wasn't no Maker, in fact she attempted to kill her undead self, when she was left to her own devices.*

"It sucks, don't it?"

*Tara asked*

Willa knew that Tara hated being a vampire when she was first turned, they had actually talked a lot about their lives in that prison. Tara had had it rough but Willa knew that had made her a better vampire. She knew how to take care of herself which, Willa guessed, was why Pam had left her alone.

Choking out a small laugh, Willa nodded "Yeah, it does fuckin suck really. But, let's talk about that at the cabin."

Turning on her heel, Willa walked off trying to find a car or some way of getting to the cabin. She wondered if Eric or Pam had any cars they left just sitting around.

*Tara nodded*

"Girl, what the hell are you looking for?"

*She asked as she watched Willa turn on her heel.*

"The cabin, is that way."

*She said pointing, in the other direction.*

"Did that fairy blood make you wonkey? Cause if it did you need to own up now, before we start off any where."

*Tara said shacking her head, she was sooo pissed at Pam for leaving them, she knew Pam was made Eric left, and at this point she just felt like shit fell down hill.*

"Yo, what are you looking for?"

Willa turned back to Tara and placed her hands on her hips, "I was wondering if Er...Er...if they have any cars that we can use to get to this cabin. I figure the sooner we get there, and into Pam's closet, the better."

Willa couldn't get Eric's name to come out of her mouth. She just wanted to get to a place where she didn't have to put on a brave front. She wanted to be able to truly express the feelings that were coursing through her body.

"I would love to try some old fancy bloods that they probably have stored there too! I could probably drink it all right now!"

*Tara crossed her own arms over her chest and shook her head at Willa*

"Why in the hell would we wanna drive when we can run like much faster?"

*She noticed Willa, noticeably having trouble saying Eric's name, and shook her head again.*

"Just call him asshole, then you won't have an issue saying it, fuck him....you know what fuck her, fuck them both! This is so stupid....Eric should have planned better, granted he didn't plan on that Nora chick dying, but this is some bullshit, Pam was upset he left her, so she left me....what the hell is that she did the same thing to me as he did to her, but unfortunately, I couldn't hover, or fly like she did....not that I would have left, as you would have had no one, that is why I think them two bitches deserve each other, fucking just left us behind, that's some bullshit.!"

*Tara said clearly pissed*

"Come on did he teach you anything before he left?"

*She asked Willa.*

Willa looked at the ground when Tara told her about how they could run faster than a car could go.  She had read about those things in her father's file about the vampire camp but those days seemed like they were ages ago.  

"Right yeah I forgot about that."

Deciding to ignore Tara telling her to call Eric an asshole, Willa simply listened to her rant about how they had both been left.  Truthfully, she was pissed off about the fact that she had been left alone from the moment that she had been turned but right now, that was neither here nor there.  

"No, he really didn't teach me much other than what being summoned was like and how to feed off of a human. That lesson was only once and rather rushed really.  Right after that, he sent me off to my father who, in turn, sent me off to that stupid camp of his.

"Come on girl, I am gonna teach you Tara Thornton's school of vampirism, first step 1, we're faster then humans, hell girl, I think we are faster then humans in cars, watch."

*Tara said running circles around Willa, so fast the younger vampire would have had a hard time following her, with her eyes.*

"Just because you were made as a direct fuck you to your original Daddy, does not mean that you have to stay sweet and naive, because sweetie, that isn't going to work with me, or Pam, and surly not Eric, if they get.....when they get back I mean, and I am going to chew Pam's ass out for this, believe you me."

*She stopped running.*

"Step 2, you need to feed, after we get settled I promise to take you out and show you how I was taught, by the time Eric, and Pam get home, you'll be a pro."

*Tara said smiling.*

"You ready to go? Just watch me, and run....follow me, I'll lead the way to the cabin, come on now....fast, just like me, I am sure you'll catch it easy."

Willa watched Tara literally run circles around her, telling her all that she would need to know and also trying to assure her that Eric and Pam would be back. When she told her that she'd have to stop being so sweet and innocent, Willa smiled slightly as her mind went back to the night that Eric had turned her and she had cussed him out for sending her back to her father as a vampire.

"I think I could get the hang of being relatively bitchy at times. After all, I am Er....Eric's baby vampire. I should've inherited something from him right?"

As Tara vampsped off, Willa took off as well trying her best to keep up. The feeling was exhilerating, such a sense of freedom! She couldn't imagine what it would be like to fly but Willa decided that she would give it her all to learn.

"Hey Tara," Willa called out to the blur just ahead of her, "can we stop and pick up someone to eat?"

*Tara nodded*

"Sure I guess we can get something to eat on the way there, besides I can try and help you perfect your bite, if you and me are going to be here together, we may as well, at least show them up when they get back, by showing them how bad ass you are when they get back, also we have to make sure you don't get sick, ain't nobody wanna die, like that."

*Tara said nodding, towards a lake, over a bit in front of them.*

"There's a male and a female hanging there feet off the docks, you go for him, and I'll go for her, I wanna see your technique anyway."

*Tara said with a smirk.*

"If you and me are going to be running together, you and me need to make sure we got this shit, and I'll teach you everything I know, 'cause someone should."

*Tara said, looking over at Willa.*