by Jessica Hamby-Fortenberry Sat Oct 12, 2013 9:29 pm
She felt so bad for her. "You did a lot of good at the camp, if it had not been for you, we may still be there. I know he's proud of you for that." She smiled and shrugged slightly, "I can show you a few things. I mean I don't know that much and I'm no pro, but I do know some things."
She took another sip of the wine but this time it was more like a gulp. She felt bad that Willa was left alone and could tell she was still hurting from losing Eric. It was crazy to think he had died. She listened to Willa's confession and giggled. "It must be the norm..." She saw her face and explained. "I did the same thing. Well, I just got upset. And you know, now that I think about it I don't really remember why. I just...snapped. I killed a lot of people, but....I killed my human father. That was the fucked up part." She downed the remaining bit and poured more in the glass, feeling slightly woozy but she knew it wouldn't last.
"We've all got problems. My maker thinks people can be redeemed just because you love them enough. My...ex? is shacking up with his new progeny and will probably end up sleeping with her soon, the guy I met in camp, James...I had sex with him, at first because I thought I would die without having sex with another vampire...then when we were saved I realized it was because I had feelings for him that I couldn't explain. So in the end, it was me who fucked things up...of course this is after Quinn left me in Nevada to find my own way home. He left to God knows where, didn't know if he was still alive, if he would ever come back...and yet...I screwed up...it was my fault. I hurt the one person I swore I wouldn't....and I'm going to end up doing it to James." Kiara's words echoed in her mind and she repeated them, "I had the love of a wonderful man and threw it away for a fling. The love of a kind human and threw it away for sex. I have a vampire father who cares so deeply he willed away his fortune to me. The love of a tiger that risked it all, including himself to see me smile."
She lost herself for a moment and threw the glass at the wall, covering her face with her hands as the red tears seeped from her eyes.